I feel my time in this world is over

[Dahak]

I tried calling the suicide hotline but im to much of a coward to actually talk to another human being on the phone, i have no life whatsover i dont even go out in the daytime because im so fearful of people seeing me my family members seem to busy to even bother with me so tonight i am contemplating to shallow as many pills as a can find i figure either i would go to the hospital and people would take notice and help me or i would just end it all.Everyday i wonder if i should just end it all maybe i'll be happer on the otherside because i feel my life now is not worth it.

 

[~PinkElephants~]

First off welcome to the forum. :hug: I'm sorry that you are feeling so low. I understand where you are coming from when you feel your family is too busy to see b/c i struggle with that everyday. You say you think you'd be better off on the otheside but how can one guarantee that there is another side. Even though your parents seem to busy to take notice I still think theyd miss you tereibly if you were gone. If you need to talk feel free to PM me, I'm also on MSN and AIM. Oodles of hugs and I do hope you decide to stick it out, I knw people here are always willing to help.

Kel

 

[Dahak]

First off welcome to the forum. :hug: I'm sorry that you are feeling so low. I understand where you are coming from when you feel your family is too busy to see b/c i struggle with that everyday. You say you think you'd be better off on the otheside but how can one guarantee that there is another side. Even though your parents seem to busy to take notice I still think theyd miss you tereibly if you were gone. If you need to talk feel free to PM me, I'm also on MSN and AIM. Oodles of hugs and I do hope you decide to stick it out, I knw people here are always willing to help.

Kel

Anything is better then this side, yeah thats the thing i would worry about is my parents i dont want to hurt them but at the same time i wish they would at least try to make an attepmt to ask me if something is wrong.

 

[~PinkElephants~]

what if you sit them down and talk to them. If that doesn't work scream in at thema nd say you aren't okay. I dont know your situation but if they aren't willing to help if you are old enough I'd go outside of them and find someone to talk to that oculd help.

:hug:

 

[ace]

Anything is better then this side, yeah thats the thing i would worry about is my parents i dont want to hurt them but at the same time i wish they would at least try to make an attepmt to ask me if something is wrong.

BJay welcome my friend,in terms of your parents not making an effort or attempt to ask if something is wrong I know how that feels.It's like the typical case of when one doesn't understand about depression yet thinks it's so easy to overcome.

 

[smackh2o]

Hey there. I totally can relate to your problem there. Especially with the whole hospitalisation thing. Wanting to be noticed but too scared to actually tell anyone. I tried hospitalisation a month back. I'm so crap I took too many sleeping tablets before I started on anything else and fell asleep. I woke up dizzy as anything but not ill enough. It was a bit of a desperate idea looking back.
If you want people to know but can't find a way to directly tell them then make hints. Act weirder in front of them. Even tricks like writing it all down on a piece of paper, posting it through your letter box then going for a long walk might work. Anything to take the heat off the confrontation of it all.
I know about phone things as well. I could never ring the suicide hotline. How do you go about talking to someone about your deepest darkest feelings when we wear masks in front of people nearly all of the time?

Maybe you could tell us what's been eating you all this time. If we know then at least your not alone in your mind. It might make it easier to talk to someone closer or of flesh and blood.