Hi! I'm new on this forum. English is not my native language, so please forgive my grammar mistakes. I'm a 28 year old male. I still live with my parents and I'm unemployed. I have zero friends, no girlfriend. I have a Master degree in Environmental Science. Okay, I got it, its not a valuable degree and I screwed up my life choosing this. I have a good explanation for choosing this major however: When I was younger I had a dream beeing part of research projects to make this world a better, more sustainable and a happier place. I failed. The world doesn't need me. I realized the terrible truth: The world only needs engineers, meds, economic majors, programmers. Okay, I accepted all those facts above after a few months. I started to look for a job slightly outside my field (EHS, lab technician, analytical assistant and so on). I had two interviews, I screwed them up terribly. Okay I accepted this fact too. Now, I'm looking for any job (even manual jobs like in factories). No answer. I realized what the problem is: I'm very-very shy, terribly bad at self marketing, holding speeches and generally: doing this interview HR stuff what job market requires me to do nowadays. I am a very rational, logical person however, I can take a lot before giving up. I make plans, plan B, plan C etc... I even learned two programming languages by myself but companies don't even cosider hiring me because my degree is not in the field of IT. Looking back at my life I see one thing: The world doesn't need me. The world doesn't want to give me anything at all. The world only needs me, when it can get money in the process (my parents money, mostly) like feeding me and keeping me alive. But when it comes to my skills and my employment the world turns its back to me. As I said I dont have friends -anymore. Because my ex-friends have their own place to live, family, wife, girlfriends and kids (yes they have choosen wisely and studied IT, economics and marketing, not science) and they abandoned me. My sister, who is a very successful person always makes fun of me. My parents are mocking me for my unemployment, and they laugh when I say I have depression. Their reason is "Oh please, a 28 year old person cant have depression. you are just sad!". Now here I am. I ran out of plans. I have no idea what to do. Literally. I'm sitting on my bloody chair and I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHOULD I DO. Imagine the feeling. Nothing more come in my mind to change my situation. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I dont even know what the world means. I seriously think killing myself is the only solution left. I'm already looking for a method which can preserve my organs nice and safely and a way donating them for more useful people than me. Maybe you think my writing is cold and lacks sorrow for a seriously suicidal person, but this really seems to be the end of the line for me. I would gladly take any idea to change the situation. I really want to make killing myself the last solution, so please tell me a way, tell me SOMETHING to keep goind, and I'm not talking about something like "Oh it will be bettter dont worry!".