i feel ready to give up the fight...had a weird day...rang community mental health guy and told him i had enough,,cant deal with flipping emotions... blood trickling down arm is cool...makes me feel alive yet i want to be dead...i am too tired to carry on fighting...maybe its time to say goodbye,,spoke to my mum and said goodbye as best i could without stressing her...i know i will never see her again...i am done with fighting...thank you ..