I don't know. I am just venting. I feel really, really bad and am having a really hard time not cutting. I suck. It is all I can think of. I don't want to cut but the urge is very strong. Do I , don't I, do I, don't I, do I.......it .ahhhhh I think it's a do. Bummer. Maybe I can make do with a teeny weeny one. I'll try it. I am afraid it won't be enough. Please, please let it be ok.