I'm not making a good impression here- 2 of 3 posts are negative. I'll try to post some more upbeat stuff tomorrow. Right now, I've got to get this off my chest. I'm sorry if it makes me seem awful. I'm having a really hard time being truly happy for everyone around me. It seems like everyone I know is having amazing luck, getting things they've always wanted. I'm here on the sidelines with my shitty life, watching. One friend is going to NYC for the weekend to meet a bunch of mutual friends for the first time. (we both are on the same online group) I can't afford the trip. Others have great jobs, taking trips, or just able to do things like go shopping. I went thrift store shopping with a friend yesterday. I bought a coffee mug for me and two books for the bf, it took every dime I had. She had a cartful, including furniture. I'm not a hoarder or a shopper by any means. I'd just like to be able to buy a bloody coffee mug without having to justify it or use my last dollar. (Its a mug from Wicked-I'm a Broadway nerd, not a coffee fan) I'm just sick to death of facebook updates and the like, showing off perfect lives and achievements. My achievements these days involve wearing clean clothes and going out of the house. Theirs are trips and college degrees. Bleargh.