I dont know where i should begin.. Im eighteen years old, i live alone away from all my friends and my so called 'family'. I go to university, around 200 miles from my hometown. Since moving, each day i feel more alone. I really dont think i can do this anymore... My life just seems to be one big fuck up. I can never seem to do anything right, i've started to not really care about my classes at uni.. I just dont seem to want to get up for my lectures anymore, so i dont. I just stay in bed all day, practically everyday. i dont seem to have the motivation and the energy to live another day of my life - sad i know. All i find myself doing is thinking of ways i can kill myself, and attempting to do so. I cannot stop cutting myself, as much as i try not too. I dont even know who i can speak to anymore, my best friend says he is always there for me, but sometimes when i call him and talk about my problems he doesnt seem like he has the time for me, which makes me feel so alone. Lately it has got to the point where I can hardly speak to him about the way i feel. As for my 'family', they are no help whatsoever, they only care about themselves, i have two brothers and a sister. Im the outsider, always on the edge of the family. Everytime we all meet up, it is always so awkward they have their chats and jokes and exclude me from everything, it's like it's all about them. They claim they care, but they dont bother with me, as much as i try and reach out; they just dont care. I just want all of this to be over, i just dont think i can do this anymore.