I've never been good with introductions, and it doesn't seem as if I've gotten any better but I'll do my best. Hi, everyone. I'm B. I'm 18 and I've been mercilessly searching for a place similar to this. The members seem kind, caring, and not the least bit judgmental. I've been suffering from depression, and a mean eating disorder that comes and goes as it pleases. I thought I could continue with this burden-of-a-life if my older sister (I have two, but the other rarely comes around) was here with me. She's always there for me, but I've been feeling like a burden to her. After all, she deserves her own life without having to worry about me. But the reason my suicidal thoughts have amplified so much is because she's moving to live in the dorms where she has been going to school. Slowly, but surely, I feel my eating disorder creeping back up on me. I'm completely hopeless. My parents wanted to take me to a psychiatrist after they found out I was suicidal. It broke my mom's heart when she found out. She was angry, sad, and confused. I couldn't bring myself to ruining their life, so I've been shutting everyone out and putting on a show so no one knows what's wrong. I hope to just....just...have someone hear me out here. And ultimately make friends with those whom I can relate to. I write as a hobby. I also absolutely love nature, and everything in it. It brings me solace. Anyways, hi everyone. This site looks lovely.