my boyriend of six years just broke up with me tonight....I wrote him an email letting him know i want to work on our relationship. He is upset, he says i have no ambition or drive. also i have bad anxity and panic attacks. I lost all motavation two years ago when my step dad comited sucide... he shot him self in the head and died on the way to the hospital. Then two days later I was layed off my job. I went to the doctor because i was very depressed, they prescribed genaric Zolft (Sertraline) I was up to 150 millagrams.... before i knew it I felt like a zombie. I had no motavation to to a darn thing! I just wanted to eat and sleep or drink. I have been weening off this medicne for quite some time. I am down to around 15 to 17 mg. I will be 30 years old in May! I have wasted the last two years of my life and I will never get it back. I am starting to feel so much again after tappering of the zolft! I want to do better for myself and I am ready. In the process of this I have lost the love of my life, I fear I will not get him back. I feel so lost again... I dont want to fall back into a depresion. He means the world to me, he always will, I have let him and myself down in so many ways. I just dont know what to do. I feel hopeless once again. I just need a hug.