I know that I am in the majority of people who feel that way on this site, so I guess because of that, I feel like it is no big deal I feel this way. I have never cried so hard as I have today. I am home alone and I have already started taking some aspirin, partly because my heads hurts so bad from crying and partly because I want to keep taking them until I feel nothing anymore. I know logically that is very stupid and the odds of me dieing from that are very slim, but I have other pills I want to take too. I know that from past experience and what I have read online, taking pills is probably the least effective way to kill yourself. But I get some solace in taking them thinking that maybe, just maybe it will work this time. I am crying out so hard and want someone, anyone to hear me and be an angel for me, but no one is there. And I feel even more lost and alone knowing all I can do is cry and feel like dieing and there is no one who cares.