Life has become a continuous struggle. I just don't know what to do and am so tired of having to struggle through each day. Suicide seems like the only answer in my case, but I can't do it. I've tried and tried to get help, but nobody has been able to help me. I wish that I could find some more pro-suicide sites, but there doesn't seem to be any. I want help. I want to live, but just not how I've been living lately. It would be a blessing for me to be dead. I've been seeing a psychiatrist and a social worker, but nothing helps. I would go to the hospital, but have already been there twice and it didn't help. I feel tormented continuously by my thoughts. I just don't know what to do. I never would have thought that something like this could have happened to me. I have severe confusion and I don't see reaility the same. I just don't want to suffer anymore, but it seems that there is nothing that I can do.