I have been feeling so low that I'm thinking of ending it all. I haven't cut in years and have started to now. As well as starving myself. The only comfort I get, I you can call it that, is to play my music really loud on my headphones. To drown out the voices. I haven't many friends. No one to talk to. They wouldn't understand. They would say stop being dramatic, feeling sorry for yourself. I can't seem to find the words to explain myself. Also I'm addicted to painkillers. I'm hurting myself any way possible. I just want to talk to someone. I literally have no contact with anyone on a daily basis. I feel so lonely.