I wasn't sure if I should post this, but I decided to. I am in my late 20's, I live with my elderly aunt, I have had put school on hold for reasons I am not comfortable discussing right now, and I don't have a steady job. I wake up everyday feeling so much guilt for not meeting my own standards and goals I met for myself. I sometimes just wish I had the courage to take my life so I can stop being a failure and burden in life. However, I feel a lot of pressure and most times anger towards my family because they talk to me as if just kick my feet up like I don't have a care or a worry in the world. It just adds to the frustration I already feel. It's like i'm supposed to sit here and not have a life or I can't make my own decisions. I realize that I am a burden, a failure and a bad person, but that doesn't mean I need people who hardly practice what they preach to throw their bullshit guilt trips over me. Sorry if this didn't make any sense. I may try to elaborate more later.