i somehow found the strength to get through the withdrawls from the effexor. All i wanted was to just get through it and now im through it and im still unhappy. This whole fear of vomiting thing is ruining my life. I cant live normally. Thats the major thing that makes me the most depressed. If i didnt have that id really enjoy life or at least try to with a positive outlook. I dont want to cry because i know alot of people have it much worse than me. So i shouldnt be complaining.sometimes i close my eyes and wish i were dead. Sometimes i fear closing my eyes because im afraid i woke wake up. I just feel like i dont appreciate life enough to deserve to live. Sometimes i wish i could give my life to someone who reallllly wants to live and has the energy for it.
I can tell you I suffer from a similar problem, I'm not sure how big yours is but my fear of vomiting is all from eating, and therefore I don't really eat much of anything except tasteless, dry foods. It's rather depressing, to say the least, I can't go out and do anything with anyone nor accept food, because I simply won't eat it. On top of that don't let anyone tell you your problem is ridiculous, I believed it my whole life, but it's who I am.
Medicene will not help... Medicene is supposed to be described for patients with a chemical inbalance in the brain, that's all it can do, in the end, the phobia you say is causing your depression will still be there.
I'm personally going to a doctor next month to find ways to cure it, granted I'm pretty desperate I may try hypnosis, they've said it can cure a phobia. Even though I'm skeptical of the process working to begin with.
If you elaborated more on the fear and how it affects you I can suggest some things or tell you you're not alone. :unsure: