I feel terrible i only seem to come on here whenever im within moments of killing myself. I tried so hard to give back but i couldn't seem to commit. Please if anyone is there please reply please. I have a doctors appointment on monday that seems a lifetime away to get more help i dont know how much longer i can wait i think it may end before the sun breaks in the morning. I just cant cope with anything anymore. There is a bridge near me that is so more appealing to jump from than living and carrying on. Ive realised rather than being scared of death id just have a few moments of scared and need a small amount of courage to jump and once down all my problems and life and hurt would disapeer and that would be it.