Trust is something that has to be earned, in my opinion. I am sorry that most of the people in your life are not trustworthy enough to hear your problems, because you do matter. If you ever feel nervous about posting your thoughts on here, just read some other forums and topics to see if the people talking are kind and patient enough to listen to what you want to say. I came on here because the kind of thoughts I have would upset the people I love. So being on here and explaining my issues with anxiety and depression will help me because I know I'll be around people that understand my pain and can talk me through it sensitively. Don't think that just because some of us might have gone through the same thing as you, that your experience will not be as important. We won't belittle you for having the same struggle that we have had, because we know what it's like and we care deeply. If anything, it makes us want to help you more. If you want to PM me, or someone who has been on here longer, or anyone else, don't be afraid to write down how you feel. The great thing about this place is not just that we are anonymous, it's also that it's a place where you won't be judged at all. I wish you well.