I feel very down.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by UKguy, Oct 2, 2009.

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  1. UKguy

    UKguy Member

    I feel very down at the moment and very tearful and have made a big mistake that I cannot possibly undo. I have to wait for 3 months for the results of some tests. I don´t really know if I can wait that long and I am terrified of the outcome.
     
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hey,

    Want to tell us more about whats going on? What big mistake have you made? :hug:
     
  3. Chargette

    Chargette Well-Known Member

    Hi, I've been through something where I had to have tests and then wait. It is gut wrenching, but I found that as is bothered me to no ends, I had to think about decisions I've made and what I plan to do in the future.

    We're here if you want to talk more about it. :hug:
     
  4. UKguy

    UKguy Member


    Its very personal but here goes.

    I´ll give you a bit of background first. I tend to be a very anxious person by nature. I tend to focus on things that have not happened but that I believe, subconciously, have happened.

    The mistake I feel I have made is that I have put myself at risk of contracting HIV (that is why I have to wait 3 months - this is so the antibodies to the virus can show up in the blood). I had sex outside of my relationship with someone else and, although I am sure there was no question of a condom not being used, I have got it into my head that somewhere or somehow during the sex, something went wrong. I don´t know if this is down to anxiety/paranoia. One of my friends (who is HIV positive) tells me that I am being paranoid and that I am imagining things. I can´t help worrying and feeling very depressed and down about it all.
     
  5. Chargette

    Chargette Well-Known Member

    That was the same kind of test I had and it is so hard to wait. Keep posting here as you need to.

    :hug:
     
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