Uhhh I dont know where to start so here we go. hello my name is Karson, i am 15 and my life really sucks. Back in 2005 my dad was re diagnosed with melanoma cancer. he had a good fight he lasted 2 years before he started to lose his memory and the last thing i remember him doing is telling my brother to get away from him right before he punched him in the face. we had a very rough couple years while my mom progressively drank more and more and now is an alcoholic, we had a decent amount of money because of my dads hard work, but when he died we slowly crept down into poverty. But things were starting to look up when i thought i met a girl i loved and she loved me. she cheated on me once and i got over it. we were messing around, sneaking out and that sort of stuff. After a while she broke up with me to go out with a 19 yearold. meanwhile im struggling in school because im very self conscious and struggling to get even D's in school. so me and her got back together about 3 months later, and we had sex but it broke and we had to get plan b, she ended up cheating on me 4 more times before SHE broke up with me again and went out with the guy she cheated on me twice, so that pretty much destroyed me. and i never had a father figure to teach me how to be a man and deal with my problems efficiently. so im slowly loosing all my friends because i moved and have to be home schooled till i can drive and i can never sleep so staying up listening to sad music doesnt really help with the whole suicide issue. ive never really told anyone any of this before and i need to tell someone before it comes back to haunt me