Short backstory. I am a 20 year old gay male who dated this guy from January to April. First guy who ever said he loved me and vice versa. I didn't really feel ready for him so I decided to let him move on and find someone who was. During this time, though, we had some levels of sexual contact. Recently, he got a new boyfriend. I felt extremely envious. I told him that I loved him as a person but to watch him with his new boyfriend online all the time would be too much. I ended our friendship. Right after doing that, I discovered that he's on probation for lewd and lavicious acts with a child under the age of twelve. Am I wrong for feeling violated? Am I making this too much about me? I feel like emotions were manipulated. I feel lied to even though he had no obligation to tell me. My friends tell me if I don't wanna even pursue friendship with this guy, then I shouldn't ask what the story is. I don't know if I'll feel sane without asking. Would knowing make me feel worse? Do I have a valid reason to be upset? Was my entir relationship with him a lie? I have a lot of thoughts and feelings and it's so difficult for me to articulate them right now.