A few months ago, I fell in love with a girl. I had looked for more than a decade for someone that I felt a connection with, and I finally found it in her. However, despite my deep feelings for her, in the end she did not want to be any more than friends. I had a hard time coping, but about a month later it seemed like she was starting to come around. However, this turned out to be another mirage, and the end result was far too painful to cope with. She actually started talking to a good friend of mine, who also happens to my next-door neighbor. And soon, they started getting more serious. Seeing them together is like a million daggers stabbing me in every possible nerve. And while I haven't seen them together very often lately, I know they're still together, and I know she won't be seeing me the way I need her too. So, to get to brass tacks, I'm really starting to think that nothing else is worth it. I found everything I ever wanted in her, and she doesn't want to even give me a chance. And I have to watch her give someone else a chance right in my face. And I know I'm never going to find anyone like her again; or even someone different, but just as good. They might be out there, but I'll never get to meet them. I don't want to live in a world with no hope of ever finding my promised land. I already found it, I can't have it; everything my life was leading up to was taken away.