I found out the root of my problem.

[DarkAndLonely]

Even though this place is totally anonymous, I don't feel right talking about it here. I don't want to kill myself now -- I just want someone to listen to and understand my situation.

I heard a psychiatrist on the radio describe my situation exactly. I didn't realize exactly what my problem was until they said it and then a light bulb flickered on in my head.

I don't want IMs, I just want someone who's willing to accept a private message. I don't want to talk about my problem and PLEASE don't feel sorry for me. If you have any advice, that's great, but no sorrow and I need someone to listen more than I need advice at this point.

I've never talked about this before with anyone. My closest friends in real life know what happened -- but I can't talk about it with them. I just need to get it off of my chest for one person that's willing to hear my story.

 

[crazyjaxx]

i'm willing. If you want you can send me a message anytime you'd like.

 

[DarkAndLonely]

Thanks, whomever is in charge can delete this thread now.

 

[Jodi]

DarkAndLonely,

Welcome to the site....hope you found the help you were looking for....we're always here if ya ever need us again.....take care....-Jodi

 

[gentlelady]

I am willing to listen should you still need an ear. My PM box is open. I hope you found what you needed from us.