Yes! Thats it! I know exactly what i'm doing and how it'll turn out! I feel so stupid for suffering all those years and not just having the guts to do it. I wont say what coz as far as I know methods are not welcome here. I feel so extremely happy coz now all this suffering will find an end!!! It'll hurt like mad but will be unescapable! Nothing can save me from that! Good bye I wrote my letters and I will send them off just before I do it. The amazing thing is, this time, no one will find out and no one will come in uninvited.