I feel like what the F--- is wrong with me after I did it. it was like this urge. It's not like I'm building a shrine or anything. I don't know how would I feel if I found out she have a boy friend, I mean found out by accident, because I don't really want to know anything about her ever again, so I would become obsessive again. Now I'm a stalker again, . It was infatuation at first, then turned to stalking. Now I'm afraid when I get out, I might bump into her. I almost forgot what she looked like until yesterday, when I just have to make up a fake FB account and add her cousine as a friend, then I found pics of her. Now I feel so F---ed up.