I know I am not coping with a lot that is going on in my life and surrounds at present.
Yes I would love to hurt and make my husband suffer the way that he continually makes me suffer. He ALWAYS finds a way of making anything that might be enjoyable for me a reason to argue and make out that I am nothing more than a selfish so and so and have no regard for anyone or what work he does blah blah blah.
I do NOT have a social life, he has ensured that I do not go out and there is ALWAYS a reason he can find to STOP me. On the rare occassion that I HAVE done something I WANTED to do, well it really is not worth it, because he always throws it up at me that how dare I go and have a good time if he is working, so you see whatever I do I am damned.
The mood I was in when I wrote that original post, I can only say YES I was thrilled at the prospect of dying and NOT FEELING. I am so sick to death of hurting and with the way he carries on he has me wondering about my sanity at times, twisting things this way and that to end up confusing the heck out of me.
Yesterday I went out with MY daughter, (I always refer to the kids as mine as his input to their upbringing was only, and not belittling that, the breadwinner, he NEVER would look after them, that was NOT his role in life) so for the two days prior to us going out he treated me like absolute shit and argued about everything he could create. I could not even ask him if he wanted a drink without him finding a way of making it into an argument.
I don't sleep, I don't eat, I feel like a zombie.
TLA, yes I felt like coming through the computer and punching you:tongue: feeling the way I was I really did not need THAT sort of comment. BUT, I too have been guilty of opening my mouth to put my foot in it:rolleyes: