I am in college and missed my final exam for one of my classes and even though i had an A in the class I ended up failing. Now I lost my scholarship and I don't even know what to tell my parents besides that fact that I am an utter failure and disappointment. I have a pistol that I have been staring at all day and I just don't know what to do. There is no way in hell that I could tell them. If it comes down to it I will have to leave a note behind.