I think they are my friends and they end up screwing me over and I get depressed and feel like shit.I feel like an idiot and I'm ashamed that I do this. I know I shouldn't trust strangers, but I do. Maybe because I don't have friends. I don't know. I feel like a fool. My self esteem is so low, and I feel a pathetic loser. I met someone on an Internet forum, I thought we made a connection, but I was banned from the forum because I argued with someone who attacked someone for having depression. Anyway I was happy to have been banned, but I wanted to give the person I meet my email (which is anyomous btw) - so I made another account just to pm that person, then they told the mod it was me and they banned me, and made fun of me. I know this is dumb, but it really bothers me. It bothers me because it bothers me. Meaning I'm such a loser to do stuff like this and everyone must think I'm an idiot. I'm pathetic.