I get so frustrated when people don't understand what I am going through. I don't blame them because they don't understand. It seems like most people think that anything that goes wrong with the mind can always be fixed with medication or therapy. Today my dad told me that "you just have to pull yourself out of it". Nobody seems to understand that there is something physically wrong with my brain except maybe my psychiatrist. I didn't chose for something to go wrong with my brain. It just happened. I know that it's not my fault, but I still have to deal with it along with the challenges that I face everyday. I can barely function in society. Every place that I go, I have severe confusion. I feel spacy, confused and have a hard time driving because of it. I always feel like I'm exactly the same as everyone else and it's very hard to function in society when I'm always thinking that way. I just don't understand why it is so difficult to understand how something could go wrong with the brain that can't be cured with drugs or therapy and that mental problems aren't always temporary. A lot of people would think that I'm just a loser. I used to be really successful. I'm not a loser. I'm handicapped because something went wrong with my brain. I have no control over it. I've tried the meds and therapy. The meds don't work and talking about it doesn't help me. My previous psychiatrist has run out of ideas. I'm going to try and see a different one. I doubt that they will be able to help me any more than the others have, but I can't stop trying. If they can't help me, I'll probably see another. I suffer too much to just quit. I would rather die and be done with it, but since I can't commit suicide, I guess that I'll have to keep seeking help.