To snuff myself. I don't know why. It just seems like an easy way out. But it is a very selfish act. One of my favorite bands sings a song about suicide and I find it funny that I relate to almost all of the lyrics. It's sad. But I don't know. I haven't ever really told anyone in my life about these thoughts that I get sometimes. Sometimes I feel fine and other times I feel I need to reach out and tell someone. I don't really know what to do. I probably won't snuff myself but I do think about it on an almost daily basis now and I don't know why.