This isn't how I pictured my life thinking about death and wanting to die. I was happy and free like a kite or so I thought but its only a lie. It all started when I became a teen and life got confusing and I felt blue. everyone around you feels like their mean, but really, they are just ignoring you. On the outside I smiled a lot but inside I frowned more. I couldn't really connect the dots, what was I living for? Sometimes I would picture myself dying and it actually would calm me down. You still reading this, you think I'm lying? I feel like I was beat into the ground. I lie awake at night thinking it through if killing myself would be wrong. Do you know what its like to feel blue, do you think I'm just singing a sad song? Well tonight is the night you will see I sit here telling you this as I cry go on, leave, forget about me because tonight is the night I will die. The end!