They end up falling in love with me, but I end up breaking it off with them because I don't feel it. I kind of just use them to give me a self-esteem boost and to avoid being hurt myself. Does that make me a bad person? I try to end it with them in as nice a way as possible. I also went to a bar and got it on with a guy in the toilet cubicle while my boyfriend was at the bar with me (though obviously not when i was with the other guy.) I did this because my boyfriend (who I since broke up with), well, I wasn't very attracted to him. But this other guy, I really was - and he wanted me to.. you know, so I did, despite having a boyfriend. I know that sounds terrible. But the random guy at the bar was the only guy I was ever truly attracted to who actually said in so many words 'I want you to **** me'. So.. I kind of did. Basically.. I'm a mess, relationship-wise.