I don't know where to start. I'm recently married to a wonderful woman, who loves me very much and who i love very much. Financially i was fine before we got married and now we can barely keep our head above water. I've been overwhelmed with bank overdraft fees, an emergency vet treatment for my wife's dog, and other surprise expenses. I've tried looking into even picking up a second job but it's very hard since I work days and she works nights and we share a car. So my options are severely limited. I just feel like I'm drowning. I don't feel like i can talk about this to any of my friends. I don't have any family really at least none who think highly of me. Everybody in my family who i cared for has died, and my wife is the last person I really have. She kisses me and tells me how much she loves me, but no matter how much she reminds me, it doesnt help. I wish it would. I keep having thoughts about killing myself because I just cannot cope with life, but everytime i get those thoughts, I think of my wife and stop. Thing is I feel that as long as I'm with her my financial problems will continue for some time. I believe that if I die though my wife would be better off. She will never find another man who loves her as much as i do, but perhaps she can find another person who can actually cope with adult life and be a better provider. I thought about getting counseling or help, but once again...It's a luxury i can't afford when I have rent, credit card bills, medical bills, a car payment and putting food on the table to worry about.