I got off to a bad start here, so I guess I should introduce myself first before I screw up some more. I usually stay away from forums due to the cliquey nature of the internet, but I don't really have anywhere else. Not a lot to say about myself; unemployed, broke, removed from family, don't really have any friends to speak of, I don't know where I'm going to be in the next few weeks. I guess that's why I'm here, right? It's pretty obvious why I signed up. I've had it on my mind ever since my first failed attempt 6 months ago, which would have worked if I wasn't found by a co-worker and didn't get my stomach pumped. It's been downhill from there. Workplaces don't look kindly on people who've attempted suicide, so they let me go after they had to come collect my keys due to my employment being 'unreliable', guess they didn't think I'd be around much longer. I've read through about every 'Hold On' sticky the site has, which mirrors the last few months. To be honest this is about my last stop, I've worked for months with a psychiatrist twice a week and jumped through all the hoops - even they claim that all my failures have chalked up to extremely bad luck and they're at a loss to how to help. So I was suggested this. Maybe I'm missing something through all the college rejections and fistfuls of minimum-wage job resumes that never seem to get back to me. I'm not looking for magic, I'm just looking for how to live with myself when all of my resources have run dry and professionals agree I'm a lost cause. I can't really afford to be an alcoholic anymore so I'm also going through some withdrawal over the past week or so that isn't really helping my case, but that's all mentioned in the first post that I managed to botch up by amusing what I thought was legitimate advice coming from a knowledgeable source. PS; Please don't mention drugs, even if they're legal where you are. That really f**k'd over my night. Thanks.