I've only been in one serious relationship, and I feel that it damaged me somewhat, psychologically. It was years ago, and I have not had sex since then. I no longer seek a relationship, and am fairly confident I will go the rest of my life without one. I now hate women. There is nothing about their moody, irrationality, heartless or just plain stupid ways that I can find attractive. Yet I still have my male urges. More and more as time continues to go by I have progressively indulged myself in deviant or immoral fantasies. I will not go into details but suffice it to say I would probably be banned if I did. Not only that, but my thoughts are becoming even more perverse in unexpected ways, fetishes I did not know that I had are cropping up. The girls I fantasize about are becoming younger and younger as well. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm not just another danger to society, or simply to myself.