(This post doesn't mean that I'm about to do anything to myself!!!) I don't have the energy for anything on here any more. Yesterday I got some really distressing news that's forced me backwards a huge amount so when I log off from here I won't be coming back at all. I know if I come back on here then I'm going to end up doing something to myself, also my psych knows and she told me not to visit here any more because it's too triggering now. I wish with all my heart that I'd died the day Dylan-kitty saved my life. I hope you all find the strength inside you to recover, I know if I stay here it'll hinder my recovery too much. Take care. Lifeisagift knows how to contact me if anyone does need to get in touch.