Hey I'm new the forums. I really didn't know where else to put my thoughts and how Iv'e been feeling the past weeks now. I just got out of a pretty bad four year relationship. I gave it all I had, from the bottom of my heart. I never cheated, I was always loyal, and did everything I could to make her happy. She cheated on me over four times. I know it's proboly a suprize to most why I would stay with someone that long after that. I kinda grew up with her, we shared everything together. We honestly did everything together aswell. I was so comfortable with her, we were alike in every way. We communicated so well, and always talked and spent pretty much every moment we could together. We'd go on long walks and talk about the future together. A future family, and what we would be doing. Even after the cheating, we'd sit down and talk like adults and figure out what went wrong. I always forgave mabie that was my biggest weakness? I guess I was afraid to look elsewhere I didn't want to just give up four years. I really honestly felt like she was the only one who understood me. I'm very complicated, but yet she understood who I was. I don't know why she cheated to this day. I don't why she gave up on me. I gave her everything I could. I really just don't know what to do to be honest. I feel like love isn't real anymore. I feel like such a fool. I don't feel happiness in my heart anymore, I just feel like ending. I don't eat at all, I don't sleep much, all I think about is what went wrong. I felt like she was the only one who gave me happiness. I don't know how to get rid of this feeling of emptiness. I do have thoughts just about everyday commiting suicide. I guess I just need advice, I feel like im on the edge now and nothing can lift me up.