I was just told ''you can go to hell'' by my mother, for the first time..... I guess now I can take my leave away from my depression and anxiety. But I don't blame her.... I've been rejecting her love, I've disappointed those who put faith in me, I've been an all round failure. Today I will do the job and clean myself off the face of existence. I know my family will live in peace without me, I really am the worse, I hate nobody other than myself just the same way everyone else hates me. And I'm not crying about it.... they hate me rightfully. I will simply get the job done and end my pitiful existence.