i came here cause i'm so damn angry at me! I've been suicidal for two days after I made a big mistake and cut the crap out of my left wrist by accident. Or was it? I thought it was but I wonder now. It was horrible then i thought about my history of attempts and i'm lonely and scared and depressed and suicidal for having to have surgery to repair the slash. I'm a piece of trash. Bad useless mistake. i'm trying to avoid the hospital but if i say a single word feeling like this i'm gone. i'm typing with one hand and the other stitched up because i'm stupid as crap! i'm tired. really stinking tired. I hurt myself and it cost me two days of medical treatments. I'm still screwed up. i've been censored by hotlines all day for speaking the truth about how i feel. i suck, this sux and they hate me as much as i do. It's not fair and it's not my fault i'm like this. Mr. Pedophile caused me to be this way.Abusing me and teaching me to hate myself. He should have killed me. Now I have to.