Please just get well, and learn to love your life. You're so special, how could I ever let you die? I know it hurts right now, I know you're tired and just want to lay down and stop, but it won't always be like that. Just please, please, please I'm begging you, please get some help. Maybe when you're well, you'll forgive me for what I did, but even if not, loosing you as a friend and destroying part of my heart is a tiny price to pay to save your life. I love you. I'm sorry.