I don't have any friends in real life, at least ones that would be considered close friends. They never visit or call, even though they say they will...I try to get in touch with them, but they ignore me. It's hardest for me at night, because I'm alone with my thoughts, and sometimes I can start to think of bad things. I try to look for support online, but no one wants to talk to me. People can see that I'm struggling, that I don't want to be alone and that I need help, but they just blow me off and pretend I'm not there. It hurts but now I know that I'm just a burden and a bother to everyone. I guess that's just another reason why I shouldn't be around anymore.