I believe everyone has a life purpose here but I wish I knew what mine was because I really am so sick of my life. I have no friends, and the ones I do have only feel sorry for me. I am very ugly, and this isn't just my opinion, it's everyones opinion that know me. People are always commenting on how ugly I am. The other day some girl asked me if it hurts to be ugly... I wish I could just end my life right now but I can't. I can't put my mom and sister through that. besides I have some debts that I would rather have paid off before I die so that people in my family won't have to pay it. It's hard, my sister looks like she could be a super model and she is so popular. I just want a friend, a real friend to hang out with. I don't want to be lonely anymore. I hate being fat too. I am 5'5 and 140, I am trying so hard to lose the weight but it doesn't go anywhere. I used to be more than this and the weight came off really fast but now it's slowed down. I just want to get down to 120, the weight I was before I got all depressed and started eating.