I hate depression

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by brknsilence, Jun 26, 2016.

  1. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Apparently, the depression doesn't ever want me happy.

    I was doing so well last night. I went to the movies with a friend of mine. We had fun. We came to my house and talked awhile. The evening went well. No sadness, no suicidal thoughts I. It was great. I was happy.

    This morning, I did all I could to hold onto the happiness from last night. I rested and did my best to stay positive.

    Afternoon hit... i was tired. Went to get some sleep and the suicidal thoughts creeped back in. Woke up feeling tired and ended up crying. The evening isn't going well either. Back to feeling depressed and upset - wondering if this depression will ever go away.

    Thought of just ending it just to break free from my mind and depression.

    All I want is to be free, be happy, and live life normally. Is it possible or I'm just stuck always like this?
  2. Rockclimbinggirl

    Rockclimbinggirl SF climber Staff Member Safety & Support

    I'm glad that you had a good time at the movies. :)
    What about planing a weekly get together with a friend, something to look forward to?
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  3. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    I can try something.