your lack of consideration, your "red" flag when its fine for everyone else. i jsut needed help. I JUST NEED COMPANY. Icant let anything out in your fake "triggering" forum so i try to play and be cheery to fit in and have COMPANY. I hate what this place has become. I MISS the few people i truly cared for and wish i had a phone then so i could have kept in contact. I miss you a lot even if i meant nothing. the confusion is driving me insane. ive gone from cold and detached to needing something i cannot feel and it aches to the point of physical illness. you bastards have no clue what you do to people suffering! dont even fucking recognize it!!! why do i come back over and over to leave the same way???