It makes me feel really bad that so many people don't understand how I feel and say things that aren't helpful to me. I wouldn't wish my illness on anyone, but I wish that they could feel the way that I do if just for a day so they would understand. I had a lot of things said to me and was around several people while I was in the hospital that clearly had no concept of how I feel and it really hurts me. On the outside I basically isolate myself and don't really have to deal with it, but while I was in the hospital many people were talking in such a way, that I could tell that they really had no concept of what I'm dealing with. It just really hurts me to see so many people running around feeling fine while I'm always deeply disturbed mentally and having such a rough time. It's just not fair. I did go back to see my psychiatrist and she did put me on an antidepressant. I don't think that it will help, but it won't hurt either. She's always very understanding of how I'm feeling, but so many at the hospital weren't and it really upsets me. I have no control over what my mind is doing to me and so many don't seem to be able to understand that.