i hate life - venting.....

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by brknsilence, Mar 24, 2016.

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  1. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    I can't leave my house anymore without strangers being so rude to me. It's always something I am doing wrong in life. WHY AM I EVEN STILL ALIVE??? I hate life !!!

    If it's not something where I'm not parenting my kids right (in the strangers mind), it's something else that is completely stupid because they are so impatient.

    I was just out to get my daughter her shots and needed to fill my van with gas. The car that was in front of me left. And another car cuts in front of me and an impatient man behond who gets out of his car just to tell me off to get my vehicle out of the way afyer I just finished filling up. Ummmm. Hello?!?! I was here first and other people being inpatient decides to blame me because they are inpatient and I'm being patient by following the rules. Screw life. I wish I was dead. "THANKS TO THE MAN THAT RUIN MY DAY AND NOW NO LONGER WANT TO BE IN SOCIETY!!!!"
     
  2. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Sorry everyone, I been so upset lately
     
  3. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support Forum Pro SF Supporter

    Hello brknsilence, no need to apologize :) it's one of those days. I always seem to attract the idiots when I'm out too.
    I wonder if he realized the pain his actions caused someone, probably not......it shows the power of a smile and a kind word as opposed to his reaction to you. I hope the rest of your day goes better. Take care
    Brian
     
  4. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    I haven't been able to stop crying. My head hurts so much
     
  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    You will have better days, that guy is an idiot asswipe, idiots are born every second, forget about him, he's an obnoxious dick. You have to keep yourself safe sweetie, don't let others get into your mind, that is your area :) *hugs* Hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
     
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  6. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Sorry everyone.
     
  7. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Sorry for what sweetheart? Vent all you want, that is what we are here for *hugs*
     
  8. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    I just don't want to waste anyone's time. So exhausted. Tired of life
     
  9. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Your not wasting anyone's time, don't worry. I think you should open up more it might help you, don't worry about wasting anyone's time, we are all here for you through this difficult patch :)
     
  10. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks - I just hate how I been. I'm not enjoy life anymore. Just hating it more
     
  11. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I'm sorry hun, just know you can talk to us about anything at all. Maybe plan a trip to a movie that you really want to see? It's important to have things to look forward to no matter how little it is.
     
  12. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    I don't even think I deserve any of that stuff.
     
  13. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Just took benadryl to help calm me down. Still very upset and everything.
     
  14. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Caaaaalm sweetie. You will get through this horrid day. I hope the benadryl, maybe have a hot drink and hot shower and prepare for bed early if you can :)
     
  15. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Hopefully I can get the kids to bed eaely and hope for a better day tomorrow
     
  16. Unknown_111

    Unknown_111 Forum Buddy Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I am terribly sorry to hear that you are hurting. The tantrum from the man was totally unjustified and you are more deserving than that. Just stay strong as we are here for you. You need to relax and tomorrow us a new day.
     
  17. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks - hope this benadryl helps. My thoughts are still there. So upset and the more I think the more I wish I was dead
     
  18. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Thanks for being there everyone. Just trying my best to calm down
     
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  19. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Been calm for a little while but still having thoughts. Just been thinking how I'm just a waste of space
     
  20. ThePhantomLady

    ThePhantomLady Safety and Support SF Supporter

    Hey hun, how are you feeling today?

    I'm sorry you had such a bad day yesterday... but please know it's always okay to vent and let your feelings out! It was really unfair what that man did. Ugh.
    I hope you got some sleep hun. *hugs*
     
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