He is so useless and unreliable and I don't even know why I'm with him right now. I feel like I am being punished for breaking the hearts of so many guys who were madly in love with me in the past. I was stupid enough to let this fool get me pregnant and tell me that he would step up to the plate. I believed him like an idiot, and here I am, while he goes out and gets drunk every night with his childish friends and leaves me alone at home all day. He will take me to doctor's appointments, sure but that is about the extent of it. He works two, maybe three days a week at his minimum-wage job and we're in debt and he doesn't seem to care. I don't know what he cares about. Not me. Not our baby. Not being a fucking adult. Just having fun and getting high/wasted. Oh and playing video games. I sit at home and sob myself to sleep, then he comes to bed around 2am, snoring loudly and reeking of beer. He came home drunk off his ass on saturday night and passed out on the couch even though he had to be at work at 10 the next morning. If it wasn't for me he would have never gotten up. I should have let his ass fall and get fired like I know he would have but I care too much. I wish I could just die and not have to deal with his idiocy anymore. I can't kick him out because his name is on the lease and we need money to pay all the bills we are so far behind on. It's already tough on me to find another job looking as pregnant as I do but he is a young, able-bodied male it shouldn't be difficult for him to get a job. Yet he doesn't even try. I think he spent 30 minutes looking for jobs like two days ago and that was it. Why did I do this to myself. I should have stayed in school but I let myself get knocked up by this asshat. I am just as stupid as he is. What is wrong with some men (boys I guess) these days?? There are so many young women in my same exact situation and why?? It pisses me off.