a lot. he always always makes me feel like im useless and worthless to the lab. i hate it, im not even getting paid right now, and hes got this huge list of shit for me to do. i have no desire to do it, especially cause hell probably just tell me its not good enough. i know im not good enough i get it, you dont need to continually tell me. trust me i fuckin know i suck and im not good enough. all it makes me wanna do is hurt myself, punish myself, make myself suffer and end it all. i wont, at least not for a while im almost done here, as in working for him and all he can do is let me leave feeling worse about myself than i already do. i really freaking hate this.