I hate my job so much

[alice202]

So I wake up in the morning and swear when I realize I have to work 8 hours at a job I hate. There really is nothing good about the job, except that its better than not having a job. Everyone in the company works from home, including me. So while I spend time on the phone with customers, the communication I have with managers is only in chat. And usually they are confronting me about something, without understanding anything about the situation. I feel like I am always defending myself against some kind of assumption that I don't know what I am doing. Sometimes I had no information or other people give me the wrong information. They are always negative and critical, never positive. And the truth is I feel like they treat me worse because I am female and they think women are stupid.
Its not a great time to look for a job, but I have to find something. I look forward to my breaks, my lunch hour, and the end of the day. The biggest stress of the job is not customers, although some of them are snotty. The biggest source of stress is the managers who treat me like I am a moron. I want out of here so badly I swear I won't even give 2 weeks notice. I just want it to be over.
Alice

 

[Legate Lanius]

If you're able to look for another job that would be great. I think we're all made for different tasks and it's tough to find something you're good at and enjoy. Some people never find something like that, too.

 

[KindaOtiose]

I'm sorry you're not enjoying your job. As @Legate Lanius said, I think it would be worth looking for a new job, one that you would enjoy more, if you could. Or maybe, if it would be possible, could you get a transfer within your company, so you are doing the same job, but under a different manager. Stay safe. Sending hugs .

 

[MisterBGone]

Well, that sure does sound like, "Hell on Earth!" to-me. . . Alice 202! When something that is that bad, is so predominant in one facet of your life, as it is here, it can end up spilling over into other areas, and then making everything all a mess~ (please keep letting off steam to us, if you find that to be any or at all - "helpful!"). Goodness; bet ya wouldn't wish that on anyone! ;/...

 

[BraveFace]

Hi, that sounds awful!
Though, I have to say you are beautifully articulate in your post. Reading it helped me put things in perspective, as I can empathise with you, so thank you so much for that!
Absolutely start looking for a new job. Keep in mind you have time to find something that appeals to you as you are already working. Do your 'work' - and in the background do some research for new avenues/ brush up your CV/ check out other companies yadda, yadda etc.
Everything is a bit rubbish at the mo isn't it, but keep venting here. I accidentally 'vented' at one job and it caused me even more stress. It was awful, but it did get better.
Most importantly, is knowing your worth and capabilities - so tell us here - cos sometimes we (me included) actually forget that, being bogged down with the crap of work

 

[alice202]

If you're able to look for another job that would be great. I think we're all made for different tasks and it's tough to find something you're good at and enjoy. Some people never find something like that, too.

Well I guess I am looking when I have time. Its not the work so much as the situation. And it doesn't have to be perfect, just not so much pressure.

 

[alice202]

Hi, that sounds awful!
Though, I have to say you are beautifully articulate in your post. Reading it helped me put things in perspective, as I can empathise with you, so thank you so much for that!
Absolutely start looking for a new job. Keep in mind you have time to find something that appeals to you as you are already working. Do your 'work' - and in the background do some research for new avenues/ brush up your CV/ check out other companies yadda, yadda etc.
Everything is a bit rubbish at the mo isn't it, but keep venting here. I accidentally 'vented' at one job and it caused me even more stress. It was awful, but it did get better.
Most importantly, is knowing your worth and capabilities - so tell us here - cos sometimes we (me included) actually forget that, being bogged down with the crap of work

I'm pretty sure that if I vented at work it would be my last day. The managers would say I couldn't be trusted talking to customers. I have gotten fired in the past for bursting into tears when somebody yelled at me.
It helps so much to come here and be heard.

 

[Dots]

Working in a situation where managers don't respect or listen to you can be so defeating. In the end, they are creating a toxic and limited work environment and that's on them but that doesn't matter because they still make you suffer for what I would coin their crappy work diplomacy.

I worked at a job like this once - and leaving liberated me from stress, misery, pain to such a monumental extent. I didn't even realize how imprisoned I felt until I left. I hope you are able to find something else.

Tc.

 

[jxdama]

Dont quit until you have another job.

 

[alice202]

Today was interesting. My team lead take me not to take any new work, just finish outstanding work, because Friday is a slow day. Then I got a call from the manager of my previous job with the company. We have a recurring appt every 2 weeks thats still on my calendar, but since I don't report to him there's no reason to keep it. But anyway we talked for half an hour. I asked him if he could keep our conversation in confidence and he said yes. And I told him everything thats been making me unhappy. He knows the company well, and he knows all the people involved in my situation. And it helped bring me to the point of decision. I have to get out of this. He said that there might be other jobs within the company for me and he would keep me in mind. But there's no guarantee something would come up quickly. So I have to start aggressively looking for a new job now.

I have 2 possibilities - talked to a recruiter about one on my lunch hour. I am going to redo my resume for the job and give him my references by Monday. Its close, it pays well, and its a good match as far as I can tell. I interviewed there a couple of years ago and was the runnerup candidate. So I am hoping for this one to come through.

 

[Legate Lanius]

Today was interesting. My team lead take me not to take any new work, just finish outstanding work, because Friday is a slow day. Then I got a call from the manager of my previous job with the company. We have a recurring appt every 2 weeks thats still on my calendar, but since I don't report to him there's no reason to keep it. But anyway we talked for half an hour. I asked him if he could keep our conversation in confidence and he said yes. And I told him everything thats been making me unhappy. He knows the company well, and he knows all the people involved in my situation. And it helped bring me to the point of decision. I have to get out of this. He said that there might be other jobs within the company for me and he would keep me in mind. But there's no guarantee something would come up quickly. So I have to start aggressively looking for a new job now.

I have 2 possibilities - talked to a recruiter about one on my lunch hour. I am going to redo my resume for the job and give him my references by Monday. Its close, it pays well, and its a good match as far as I can tell. I interviewed there a couple of years ago and was the runnerup candidate. So I am hoping for this one to come through.

Sounds great, and even if it doesn't work out you can probably get lots of jobs since you have references and are currently employed.

 

[BraveFace]

That's great news, doors are opening for you just when you needed it. Your old manager sounds like a good chap too

 

[alice202]

My old manager is fantastic. He has a huge workload, but he is very personable, smart, great listener. My current manager is cold, sulky, and confrontational. It was a huge change for the worse... but hopefully I can get something new.