Hey,
I only just seen this thread, how are you doing now? I hope you're feeling slightly bit better than you did when you posted in this thread earlier.
I don't know if destiny exists and if it does, how do you know your destined to kill yourself? I would much rather believe that if destiny exists it is giving you this difficult challenge to survive and to get through, once you reach the other end you will be destined for new things.
You're going through a tough time and you feel as though death is the only option, but it's not. There are other options out there within reach but sometimes we have to grab them ourselves. There's people out there in the real world who have been in the challenges you are in and have succeeded in getting through them. Some had therapy, some had medication yet for others a simple change of environment, a new start to life did the trick. There are ways to get through, and if you need or want support then you've come to the right place. Take care of yourself.