i hate my life. firstly ive been a mouth breather my whole life, and thats associated with being a retard. ive also been bullied all my life in school. ive never really had any friends. ive tried to talk to people online but they stop talking to me after a while and i dont know why, i guess its my own stupid fault. ive tried talking to people at school too and they bullied me like i said. they probably realized how stupid i am. nobody else breathes through their mouth, i like my parents, but my dad drinks all the time, ive applied for jobs, cant get any, im such a loser. its all my fault my family doesnt have much money and i feel like garbage. i think about ending my life all the time. i know my parents care for me, ive tried to suicide in the past, im too much of a coward arent i? i dont need to be alive anymore. im 20 and still a mouth breather cant afford to get it fixed i am such a retard... i have no self confidence. life wont get better. i have met a few guys online but its a total waste of time. every conversation with them just turns into sex. nobody likes me at all. why should i even try to talk to anyone? they all know im a loser anyway. i know none of you care either so i dont know why i even bother to type this.