Hey. I just recently joined b/c I just really can't take it anymore. All I seem to want out of life anymore is to die. The thought of continuing to live honestly scares the hell out of me. I have just about every type of depression there is and no money for a psychiatrist, or medicine to treat any of my problems for that matter. I've been depressed ever since I was about 8, but it really started getting bad around the age of 12. Thats when my dad went insane. He has bipolar and manic depression, and more than likely, so do I. But as I said before, there's really nothing I can do about it. I hate most people around me, and not many people are that overly fond of me either. I probably shouldn't even be posting all of this garbage, but if I can't talk to people on suicide forum, who can I talk to? My life is so messed up. And I swear to God, I think I'm slowly going insane, or maybe quite rapidly, who knows? I can't seem to get along w/ anyone. I have trouble even being around other people. The only reason I am able to post this at all is b/c none of you guys know who I am and can't just lock me up in a nut house some place. I am severly paranoid, and feel as if everyone, including people in my own family want to get me. I know this is irrational, but it truly feels like they want to kill me or get rid of me. God, I am going insane, aren't I?