I haven't posted on here before, and I don't know why I choose to do so now; but I am anyway. I want to die. I am absolutely sick of the way my life is going. I hate everything about it. I have attempted three times; all of which clearly failing - it kind of sucks I can't even get that right. I just want it all to stop and the only way of doing so is by ending it all. I'm going to do it again; soon. I tried talking to someone about it, a good friend, and all to be told in the end "Stop being silly Shay; get over it", and then they would continue to point out the fact that I was such a pretty girl - wtf has that got to do with anthing?? Aghh. Thanks a lot "good" friend. I guess this is why I have come here; maybe deep somewhere I don't want to die. I know what I need to do, it's just doing it is the hard bit. I'm so lost. Agh...Sorry.